Oh, got our head in the clouds

Yes, I know I've been really terrible at posting my photos. These are actually from the beginning of March when my Grandma celebrated her birthday. Though, she's not on any of these pictures. My grandfather usually takes the photos and it wasn't different that time but he let to take a picture of two of us :) I like the photo a lot. Maybe because although I have a great relationship with him, we don't have a lot of common pictures.

Personally I think these "kitchen photos" are weird a bit, but the true is they weren't planned. I guess we just got bored during preparing the table. I like the dress I'm wearing in these photos. I got them a year ago in H&M sale and I think I love the print the most of all. 

Final photo with my cute Boyfriend. Btw his name is Michal. Btw 2 I hate my bangs. Btw 3 No, I don't have them anymore. Well, of course I do, but I wear them on the side. It was a funny experiment, but now I definitely know it doesn't suit me and I hate it.

As I looked at him I saw hope

Happy Easter to everyone (who celebrates it)! :))

It's been really nice time, these 5 days of Easter holiday :) I've spent it with my Boyfriend and family, every day except today I've visited my grandmother, helping her with preparations for Easter, baking Easter lamb and cake, coloring and decorating eggs and so on :)

Yesterady we went to the church and I was really surprised how many people gathered inside. Honestly it pleased me very much and I felt very happy about it, I don't know why, that's something I can't explain. During the worship service I was thinking about that all what happened with my faith in God since I was a little girl. There was a time I was absolutely stubborn about sunday's visits in church and I claimed over and over again, that I'm not a believer and that the church only ties us all up. But I was wrong..

As older I get, I'm aware of the importance of my faith. But that is something I wrote about already and it wasn't long ago at all. Well, as you can see, this is the topic I think about a lot and very often.

Another thing I'm grateful for is my family. Especially my grandparents. I've come to a decision that I gotta pay them much more attention than in past few years. It's obvious that during my teenage years I have had a lot of problems and worries with them related. Anyway, I think those drama years are gone (though another drama begins, because soon I will have to choose college, move out from my parents etc.) and I have to move on to. So one thing I want to wholesale change is my attitude to family.

Anyway, enough of thinking over and psychoanalysis, after yeseterday's lunch at grandma's here comes another one at my home :)

I don't wanna miss a single thing you do

For now, only some inspiring pictures about living :) See you tomorrow :P

Sunday internet thrifting

I love these.. I bet they would be really expensive though :( That's what I miss in my country.. we've got really bad sortiment of shoes and the better ones (still not anything special) are usually for more than 60 € and I can't afford it...

I'm so sick of winter! It always get me stressed when I see photos of girls in summer clothes now. Very well, this picture is kinda funny, because as usual - she doesn't have a coat or jacket, no gloves, no hat. I'm freezing even with all of these named things, so I'm looking at similar pictures smiling, because I know they're only some inspiration..

I gotta buy new flats for this season. They won't be pink of course, I don't wear pink, not that I wouldn't like it, it's just so, that I have almost nothing pink in my closet..

Yes, I'm crazy for lace and for classy lace lingerie too :)

Yaaay, ethno :)) <3

Lovely, aren't they? :)

Ethno again. Maybe I'm so into it because it's such a warm style, it reminds me of summer and vacation, and I'm wishful for spring so much.. :/ :)

Music of march

My underestimating

 It's really sad for me that I can't achieve any of my goals. I think the problem is I absolutely enjoy the planning process but I'm just too lazy and also a big coward to change anything, to try new things or to risk at all.

 For example, today I should have gone to school and taken part in some biology competition. Yesterday I was so frustrated about it and wanted to disappear or to turn back time so I wouldn't have enrolled.. but it happened once, so what could I do. During the night I was constantly waking up and I thought about it. Once I said to myself "I'll go there. It's no big deal." But in an hour I woke up again with panic, decided I can't go there because I didn't practise my knowledge about the theme, I didn't learn from the materials and I didn't prepare anything... Finally in the morning when I got up, I decided I'll stay at home. Well I didn't stay at home, I went to my grandma's but that doesn't change anything. I just failed. I didn't fail because I would have written the exam badly or I'd have hesitated during the time for elaboration. I failed because I panicked and didn't try it.

 It makes me angry, you know. It makes me even more angry that now I'm sitting here in the kitchen,writing an article (!!) about it and I have done absolutely nothing. That's so stupid from me. I wish I found some motivation to get things moving! It's still ok as long as I go to high school, but it will be a lot different in two years in college and I don't want to even think what it will be like at work! I will get a sack as soon as I will be hired! And here I have to stop.

 I have to stop making that all such a big drama. I'm right, that it can't continue this way. But instead of panic I got to work on myself. I have to start with small goals and their accomplishments. I have to stay more relaxed and stop being so stressed and underestimated!

Recently

I've been inspired by these....

1 http://lookbook.nu/vogue1996 2  http://lookbook.nu/nadiaesra 3 http://lookbook.nu/sophiamayrhofer 4 http://introvertsintroduction.blogspot.cz

I think I have some problem, which is not a problem at all, you know, but it's just strange. I've come to a thought, that I have two sides of my personality and it also projects itself into my way of dressing. As I wrote to my Boyfriend few mins ago, one of my personality is a lady from 30's, who loves lace and jazz and that upper-class things.. and the second one is absolutely lazy hippie, morover mixed with revolutionary spite :D I don't know. I really can't definitely choose one of these sides of me, not in clothing and neither in my life :D :/